Intoxicated

As we grow older, we deal with many different kinds of people. Be it attitude or thinking. It's absolutely nothing wrong with that, because if everyone were to have the same mindset like you, the world will be boring. lol

Anyway, you grow up accepting the difference within each individuals. They have their opinions and so, do you.

You decide that if you mix well with them, you keep them in your circle. If you don't like them, you set them aside to mind their own business. And, if some of them have minor friction and you appreciate them, spend some time to patch up. If not, again, let's just set them aside because life's too short. But anyhow, people deserves a second chance. I always believe in this as we are not always perfect.

But, not at all times, you can set them aside as wish to. Because, they just somehow connected to you.

As they are somehow connected to you, sometimes it makes you feel obligatory to obey. Perhaps feeling guilty for not being able to do what they want us to do, sometimes against your stand. Part of it, you were brought up learning that reputation or what people think of us is important.

So, you stood there at a dilemma, thinking if you should place yourself first or the other. You wonder, your purpose of your existence, whether to live life at the fullest or to live life making the rest happy.

I search. I read, I try.

Apparently, in life,  there are such people being categorized as toxic people whereby they defy logic. Some are blissfully unaware of the negative impact that they have on those around them, and others seem to derive satisfaction from creating chaos and pushing other people's buttons. Either way, they create unnecessary complexity, strife and worst of all stress.

While you are in the situation, you find yourself hurt despite countless attempts. You tried going their way to make them happy, but you are not. You tried going your way to make your life happy, but you are guilty. You are stuck in between.

But above all, only you know what's best for you. So, do what you think is best and live life to the fullest.